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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;">Marion
County sheriff’s detectives are asking any other potential child
molestation victims to come forward.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Marion
County Sheriff's Office detectives believe a 34-year-old man arrested
Wednesday on child molestation charges may have abused other children
as well and are urging any victims to contact them.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-style: normal;"><span style="font-weight: normal;">The
suspect, Lt. Keith Mitchell Turner, was one of four </span></span></span></span></span><a href="https://www.ocala.com/news/20190904/injured-inmate-from-womens-prison-north-of-ocala-files-federal-lawsuit" target="_blank"><span style="color: black;"><span style="text-decoration: none;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-style: normal;"><span style="font-weight: normal;">Lowell
Correctional Institution</span></span></span></span></span></span></a><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-style: normal;"><span style="font-weight: normal;"> corrections
officers accused by lawyers in the </span></span></span></span></span><a href="https://www.ocala.com/news/20191102/lowell-guard-had-complaints-before-inmate-was-beaten" target="_blank"><span style="color: black;"><span style="text-decoration: none;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-style: normal;"><span style="font-weight: normal;">Aug.
21 beating of an inmate</span></span></span></span></span></span></a><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-style: normal;"><span style="font-weight: normal;"> that
left her paralyzed.</span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">That
incident is still under investigation, but following the arrest,
Turner is losing his job with the Florida Department of Corrections.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">"The
Sheriff's findings in this case against Mr. Turner are abhorrent and
in complete contrast to the values and integrity held by our staff,"
Secretary Mark S. Inch said in a statement issued Thursday. "We
are moving forward with his immediate dismissal."</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Turner
had been employed by FDOC since 2004, except for a voluntary
separation of 11 months in 2006 and 2007.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">In
the child molestation case, Turner is charged with sexual battery,
lewd or lascivious exhibition, and two counts of lewd or lascivious
molestation.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">On
Aug. 8, detectives said they received a report concerning sexual
abuse after a girl told a family member about repeated abuse over
several years that began around 2012, according to Turner's arrest
report. The child was 6 to 8 when the abuse allegedly began.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">While
investigating the case, detectives learned of second girl he may have
sexually molested.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">They
contacted the second person and confirmed that Turner had committed
crimes of a sexual nature against that child, the report says.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Turner
was being held in the Marion County Jail Thursday without bond.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">During
their investigation, Sheriff's Office officials came to believe there
may be more victims.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">As
for the Lowell incident, the Florida Department of Law Enforcement is
investigating the alleged abuse in which 51-year-old inmate Cheryl
Weimar was severely injured. She and her husband have filed a lawsuit
in the case.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">The
amended complaint cites "Turner's violent, threatening, and
abusive conduct towards women based on dozens of inmate complaints
against him" in describing him as a "risk to female inmates
at Lowell CI."</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">"I'm
just speechless," said John Vernaglia, an attorney with the
Andrews Law Firm in Tallahassee, which filed the lawsuit.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">"It's
a very sad day, he said in a written statement. "Our thoughts
are with the child victims as they seek to heal from this tragedy. I
hope there is as much support for these victims as there has been for
our client."</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">"I'm
saddened that innocent children had to endure the abuses this monster
inflicted, and I'm most happy with an arrest," said Debra
Bennett, a former Lowell inmate who has organized protests in support
of Weimar. She hopes Turner and the other corrections officers are
arrested over Weimar's case.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Vernaglia
said Thursday that Weimar — who was hospitalized for a time — is
at an FDOC reception center in Lowell. Although Weimar is doing a lot
better, he said, she is still "in a lot of pain." He is
hoping to move her to another facility so her condition can improve.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Under
Florida law, mug shots of law enforcement officials can be exempt
from public records. This case, however, involves an exception, MCSO
spokesman Sgt. Paul Bloom said.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">"The
need to find other victims and protect other victims outweighs any
protection he's afforded," Bloom said.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Anyone
with information on possible child abuse is urged contact Detective
Ian Simpson at (352)3683586.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black;"><span style="font-family: Crimson Text, Georgia, Cambria, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">He has 100 plus pages of complaints of sexual abuse, physical abuse and on and on since 2010 and still he was promoted within Lowell.</span></span></span></div>
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Marshana's Story</div>
Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-84201025940905195742019-10-21T17:09:00.001-07:002019-10-21T17:09:27.257-07:00Dia's Story<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Dia spent 21 years in the Florida prison system.</div>
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The first silent protest a Lowell 3 weeks ago.</div>
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One of the banners for protest No. 2 at Lowell on Oct 19. Many more women</div>
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Rose was incarcerated at Lowell in Ocala.</div>
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A lawyer for a female inmate who was brutally beaten by staff at Lowell Correctional Institution and is now a quadriplegic is asking a federal judge to intervene so they can document the extent of her injuries in her pending lawsuit against the state.</div>
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Cheryl Weimar, 51, who has a history of mental illness and physical disabilities, is being cared for in a hospital in Ocala, near Lowell, the state's main prison for women and the largest women's prison in the nation.</div>
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The Department of Corrections has refused to let Tallahassee lawyer Ryan Andrews or his team take photos of Weimar since the Aug. 21 attack, first reported by the Miami Herald. </div>
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“We’re allowed to see her but not photograph her,” Andrews said. “If she was in prison we would need a court order to take photos but she’s in a hospital. What is the security risk?” </div>
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Andrews filed an emergency motion this morning with U.S. Judge Mark Walker in the Northern District of Florida seeking permission to take photos and videos of Weimar’s injuries. He noted that English television personality Piers Morgan was recently allowed in Lowell to interview inmates for a documentary on female killers.</div>
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"The hypocrisy of preventing access to document my client's condition with pictures and videotapes, is especially apparent when Piers Morgan was able to enter Lowell CI to film a Netflix special that fetishizes women killers, but pictures of my client who was brutally beaten by (FDC) employees is not permitted," Ryan said.</div>
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An investigation into the beating is under way with the Florida Department of Law Enforcement as lead investigative agency and help from the FDC Office of Inspector General, spokeswoman Michelle Glady said. </div>
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“We recognize that preliminary reports from this incident are concerning. We’re committed to examining all the details regarding this situation and ensuring appropriate action is taken,” FDC Secretary Mark Inch said.</div>
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Meanwhile, Glady said, the officers involved "have been reassigned to posts that do not have contact with inmates, pending the outcome of this investigation."</div>
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Information related to the incident is limited while the investigation is ongoing, she said.</div>
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"When the investigation is complete, the report will be made available to the public," Glady added.</div>
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As far as the lawsuit goes, the FDC hadn't been served yet and couldn't comment on pending litigation, Glady said.</div>
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In the lawsuit filed by Andrews Tuesday in the U.S. Northern District of Florida, the Aug. 21 attack on Weimar was graphically described: Four guards beat her within an inch of her life and broke her neck.</div>
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“She is now a quadriplegic because of the Defendants’ excessive use of force,” the lawsuit said. </div>
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Her injuries are so extensive she can’t talk or move, Andrews told the Democrat. He had to resort to communicating with her via the alphabet because of a tracheostomy tube.</div>
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They are seeking damages that her civil rights were violated under the Eighth Amendment protection against cruel and unusual punishment, the Americans with Disabilities Act and the Rehabilitation Act of 1973.</div>
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The lawsuit also names Karl Weimer, Cheryl’s husband. He brings a claim for loss of consortium.</div>
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Cheryl Weimar has been an inmate since January 21, 2016, and was due to be released Feb. 9, 2021. She was convicted of aggravated battery with a deadly weapon and sentenced to six years, 8 months and 28 days .</div>
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Weimar complained that she couldn’t perform her task assignment to clean toilets because she had a hip condition well documented by prison officials, and declared a medical emergency. Prison policy requires staff to call medical personnel once an inmate declares a medical emergency.</div>
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Instead, one of the guards got angry with her and a confrontation followed, the lawsuit said.</div>
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The confrontation escalated, and Weimar declared an "inmate psychological emergency," the lawsuit said. One or more officers slammed Weimar to the ground, beat her with blows to her head, neck and back, the complaint said.</div>
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After they beat her, the defendants dragged her “like a rag doll to a nearby wheelchair, allowing her head to bounce along the ground along the way,” the complaint said.</div>
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The complaint alleges the four officers dragged her outside the compound where they continued to beat her in an area not covered by surveillance cameras.</div>
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Besides breathing through a tracheostomy tube, Weimar is being fed through a PEG tube, and will likely require around-the-clock medical care for the rest of her life, the complaint said.</div>
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Evie was incarcerated at Lowell C. I in Ocala, Florida. She went in at 16 as a youthful offender but was charged as an adult. </div>
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<br />Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-32990436830700212822019-09-29T17:01:00.000-07:002019-09-29T17:08:09.829-07:00Update on SadieHi everyone!<br />
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Sorry this update has taken so long but was busy advocating for my daughter and prison reform.<br />
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Last October Sadie got moved to Gadsden Correctional Facility in Quincy, FL. This is a private prison and what a difference! She got booted from Lowell because I was a pest : ). Thank goodness. Gadsden has tons of programs, an excellent rec program with a track. Barbecues every once in awhile for the women. Sadie has never seen anyone pepper sprayed or excessive use of force. Guards are still guards-no respect for other human beings but this prison is light years ahead of Lowell.<br />
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It took awhile for Sadie to adjust because she was so institutionalized at Lowell and paranoid all the time.<br />
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She is in the service dog training program and teaches yoga. I NEVER worry about her at Gadsden. I can finally relax and sleep at night.<br />
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But things are getting worse at Lowell. 4 guards just broke a woman's neck and she is paralyzed from the neck down. She was a disabled 51 year old woman. She now has a lawyer. The guards have, as of yet, not been charged. We'll see. Former inmates and families did a silent protest outside of Lowell a couple of weeks ago and another is planned. They were on the news.<br />
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Lots is happening. Lot of the abuse is being talked about in news articles and several representatives and some senators are pushing for criminal justice reform. Baby steps.<br />
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Criminal justice reform is happening all around the country because the way we treat our brothers and sisters who are incarcerated is inhumane and unconscionable and as a nation and humans we should be better than that.<br />
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Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-13358922354526753992018-02-27T17:59:00.000-08:002019-10-04T13:05:56.614-07:00Updates and Unnecessary Death<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Well, it's been awhile since writing. I have been extremely busy being an activist and advocate for incarcerated women. Always trying to rally the troops. Eventually we are going to organize a March for Incarcerated Women.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Nothing has changed at Lowell, the prison where Sadie is. Lowell is the largest women's prison in the country. It continues to be fraught with abuse, medical neglect and at times the harshest of conditions when the air goes out, the hot water goes out for weeks and now they have decreased visitation to bi-monthly. There are many petitions and letters to Tally protesting this. They say it is due to contraband from visitors when, in reality, we all know that most of the contraband comes in from the guards.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">A young girl died their recently due to medical neglect and Lowell trying to cover it up. Many women die at Lowell but you never know because there are no obits, no newspaper articles and no oversight. Almost every incarcerated woman has seen a friend die from medical neglect at all the women's prisons in Florida. I am inserting a letter from an inmate about the death of the young girl who died. They told the family she died in her sleep. The inmates have another story.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Sadie is doing well. She still works canteen and is a beacon of light and hope for other inmates. She always walks a fine line. In prison you can go to jail on a whim and lose your gain time just because a guard may be having a bad day so you can never truly relax. All the women I have talked to that have been out for years still suffer from PTSD. One women recently likened it to being in battle. She said your sleeping soundly and then your bed is kicked hard, lights come on and someone is throwing everything you own (which is not much) around. They all say the clinking of keys causes them anxiety, having a police car drive behind them sends them into a panic. Loud noises scare them. And it goes on and on. No human being should be treated like an animal robbed of dignity, self-worth and hope.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">So recently a former federal PD and I have done a couple small public venues with statistics and information about inmate abuse. People are always shocked and appalled. Inmates truly are the lost and forgotten yet most of them will all get out someday and possibly be your neighbor. They pay for the rest of their lives. We shun them, judge them and don't allow them jobs or housing. And yet we consider ourselves compassionate, empathetic and forgiving human beings. If it's not your loved one in the abyss of hell not your problem-right?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">We can learn a lot about ourselves when we look at the way we treat fellow human beings who made mistakes-just as we all have. ALL OF US. Until it happens to your loved one you will never understand unless you are a person of compassion, empathy and forgiveness.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";"></span><br />Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-86076312375911231162017-10-09T09:20:00.001-07:002017-10-09T09:20:22.080-07:00My Experience As A Mom with an Incarcerated Daughter<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I thought that as time went on things would get easier but it never does. To know that your daughter is in an environment where she is just "inmate" and there is such disregard for her as a human being wears on you even when you think it's not, or try to be positive.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I am also astonished and disheartened at the general public's response to the incarcerated-"they deserve bad food and to be treated badly", "they should not have gotten themselves in there", "they should have made better choices" and on and on. God forbid that anyone of them ever made a mistake or a bad choice. Believe me everyone is a bad choice away from being incarcerated with all the laws we have today. Most are in for drug issues, mental health issues. And the way the rules are you can be charged with a violent crime even though there was no violence. I know many women, esp young women, in my daughter's prison who are "guilty by association". They either did not know a crime was being committed or they knew and were afraid to tell but did not participate in the crime. They are serving life sentences. My daughter said that these are the women they need to let out. So, that's how easy it is to get into the criminal justice system. And if anyone thinks it cannot happen to them or someone they love, think again. There are many many people who are incarcerated who are innocent because of prosecutorial misconduct, an uninformed jury and basically a broken criminal justice system. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">And then your sentence depends on the mood of the judge. He or she could be having a bad day and you will receive a harsher sentence. And then there are mandatory minimums for drug offenses that can be 10 years for a first time offense.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">If my daughter was in an environment that was positive and focused on rehabilitation and helping these broken women make better choices and if they had programs that build self-esteem and self-worth and that continued upon their release I would be so much less worried. Instead they are talked to with great disrespect, humiliated, degraded and then expected to be your wonderful, well-adjusted neighbor.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I could go on and on but I won't because I'm tired and at this point feeling pretty hopeless that anything will really change. The women go in damaged and they come out more damaged and why we are not all outraged is beyond me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">They shackle women during childbirth. There is no compassion or empathy for women who are ill. The medical in prison does as much as they can possibly get away with to not treat the women-"do no harm" does not apply to inmates that is for sure. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"></span>Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-84325650269179403282017-10-02T18:28:00.003-07:002017-10-02T18:28:35.654-07:00The Response to My Email
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for the opportunity to respond. Your recommendations are not taken
lightly. We frequently discuss similar topics and how staff/inmate
interaction significantly impacts behavior. We have several pilots lined
up to evaluate this further and to place inmates willing to change, in
environments designed to maximize their potential, both while incarcerated, and
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Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-25453100162447671002017-10-02T17:24:00.001-07:002018-02-27T20:02:57.701-08:00We Have Been Busy and My Email<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">We are still trying to get into the blogger rhythm again. Sadie is starting to write again to send it to me. I have joined Fl-Cure, a prison reform organization. Here is a copy of an email I sent yesterday to the warden and the higher-ups in Tallahassee. I have sent about 300 emails since my daughter has been incarcerated (finally counted them). Nothing has changed that much because, in reality, the guards are the problem and the lack of relevant rehabilitation programs.. There are a few nice ones, but most are not. Below is the email and the link is at the bottom.</span><br />
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the reasons why former inmates do not tend to do well on the outside especially
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif;">My first question is why do
the officers address the inmates as inmate instead of by their last name or at
least ma'am and sir. What is the rationale behind that. That
practice alone is demoralizing, psychologically damaging and in truth psychological
abuse. It gives the message that you are worthless and that you don't
matter which gives the officers permission to treat inmates accordingly with
verbal abuse and a lack of civility, empathy and compassion. How is that
conducive to rehabilitation and the reduction of recidivism? This may seem like
a minor issue, but it is, in actuality, a huge issue. Have someone call
us by a derogatory term day in and day out and see how that effects us. </span><span style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif;">I know I have sent articles
about the prison system in Germany where they have a humane and rehabilitative
approach to incarceration where the officers are well-trained, are mentors who
mingle with the inmates and dine with them. They have officers who are
trained in how to calm situations down without violence or aggression.
So, it can be done. And if Germany is able to do it, there is no reason
on earth that we cannot begin to follow suite.</span><span style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif;">The only reason we are here
on this planet is because of Love-to learn to love ourselves and each
other. We all make mistakes and hopefully we learn from them.
Inmates are redeemable and most of them are good human beings who made bad
decisions mostly due to addiction issues or mental health issues. Their
situation gives us the opportunity to practice empathy, compassion and forgiveness-attributes
the prison system is lacking and that has to change if we truly want the
recidivism rate to go down. My personal feeling is after talking with
other families and former inmates is that until the guards are trained better,
are held accountable for their behavior and the inmates are not afraid to speak
up for fear of retaliation or being placed in confinement, nothing is going to
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif;">I know I must sound
airy-fairy but I am speaking to the heart of each of you. How would you
want your loved one to be treated under these circumstances? These are
our brothers and sisters and we are all on a journey towards our Creator.
Life is short and our job is to make life better for each other which includes
the inmates. I have met a lot of former inmates and I am impressed by
what good-hearted and decent human beings they truly are. There are
always those who will never learn or change but they still deserve out love and
support.</span><span style="mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "arial" , sans-serif;">And we need funding to
actually create the relevant programs that will build their self-worth and
self-esteem so they are confident in their abilities when they transition
out. We also need better pay and a higher standard for officers.<br />
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Most people have never thought about a loved one being stuck in a prison with an impending catastrophic storm coming. Quite frankly, I hadn’t thought about it either until now. </div>
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The weekend of Labor Day I wasn’t scheduled to visit my daughter, but I did. I knew the following weekend the Florida prisons would be on lockdown and who knows for how long. There was an impending Category 5 storm with winds of 185 MPH out there heading for the Caribbean Islands and Florida. Her name was Irma. </div>
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She was approximately 500 miles wide. To put that in perspective, Florida’s peninsula is only about 180 miles wide. I’m a native Floridian originally from south Florida where I spent most of my life until moving to central Florida three years ago, so I’m no stranger to hurricanes. I’ve experienced Hurricane Wilma and the outskirts of Hurricane Andrew and many close calls. The difference with Irma was her enormous size and the amount of time she stood strong as a Cat 5. She was coming to the Caribbean Islands and Florida with a vengeance. To look at her as a satellite image, she was perfect looking. Not perfect in a good way, but she was a perfect storm. She was an array of beautiful colors…red, yellow, green, black and purple. Her eye was strong and her bands resembled a beautiful Indian headdress. I’ve always found hurricanes scary, yet fascinating. She kept all of Florida waiting in apprehension of which path she’d take, and the reality is that she was so large she put the whole state in danger. </div>
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With all the past storms I’ve faced, I’ve always prepared for my family. This one I was preparing for was without my daughter. I did know that she would be fine because of her location and that the storm would die down by the time it reached her. There are approximately 97,000 people incarcerated in the state of Florida, and with the impending doom, approximately 12,000 inmates were successfully evacuated according to the FDC. My daughter was moved out of her dorm to make room for transferees. All prisons went into lockdown mode. Some were moved to locations the authorities thought best. One of the facilities in the very southern area of Florida was not. Perhaps they thought it was a strongly built facility? Whatever the case, there is no say so for your family’s safety. It was a feeling of helplessness from the family members with loved ones in that facility. They would be left to worry about each other separated by a world of its own, prison. Evacuations and disaster preparedness is not in your hands, and when you think about it, there’s only so many places they can shelter prisoners. We would like to think prisons are fortresses. They are not. They are old and dilapidated, and their upkeep is not treated as a priority. </div>
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The hurricane came through Cudjoe Key and then through Marco Island taking a westward track up through Florida. Us Floridians know that the NE side of the hurricane is the “dirty side”. This means tornadoes and flash floods. Would it flood into the prison and they get trapped? There would be nowhere to go. I couldn’t help but to wonder what they’d do in that case. I mean where would they go? I can’t say exactly what time it was, but in my area, it started Sunday night into Monday morning, September 10th and 11th, 2017. The lights went out followed by howling winds that rattled your roof and doors. Not many were sleeping in the state of Florida that night. </div>
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The next couple of days consisted of clean up, no electricity, and running water was on and off and on again. I figured I wouldn’t hear from my daughter right away, but that turned into four days. Then she finally called! I was glad to hear her voice and she was worried about us, so she was relieved too. Her facility was overcrowded but she was okay, and the rest of the transferees were transferring back to their prisons that day. I was grateful. </div>
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I checked in with my network of families who have loved ones in prison, and many had not heard from the southern-most women’s prison. We knew it was hit hard there, and it became very concerning. Then finally six days later they heard from them. Their loved ones were crying on the other end. They had part of the roof fly off while stuck in their dorms as they were flooding. Then no electricity, a/c or fans, and no windows to let a breeze come in. Some inmates were stealing food while in total darkness causing fights to break out. There were some in solitary confinement left in temperatures of over 100 degrees. They began to wonder if they were going to die from this storm. Even before the storm I could not believe that with such a major evacuation, this prison was left behind. They described this past week as a living Hell. </div>
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Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-64727472959367340292017-09-14T09:58:00.000-07:002017-09-14T10:38:42.568-07:00Written by an incarcerated woman in Florida<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-size: 14px;"><strong><span style="color: indigo;"> The "Uprising" - a term used by a group or species that have been oppressed beyond their limitations that are prepared to rise above. Prepared to go the distance for equality.</span></strong></span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;"><strong><span style="color: indigo;"> This fear has permeated the FL DOC statewide and as I write this, the entire state of Florida prisons are on, at the very least, a Level II lockdown. An entity held hostage by their fear of retribution for their participation in the violations of truth, justice and human dignity.</span></strong></span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;"><strong><span style="color: indigo;"> Mass incarceration equates to a HATE CRIME affecting some 2.3 million people and their loved ones in the U.S. The driving force for this is Corporate America colluding with our government-how far we have fallen as a nation founded on liberty to engage in such an atrocity as imprisoning its people for profit; but that is the cold hard truth of this business. CEO's and corporate executives of the Prison Industrial Complex receive six, seven and eight figure salaries with stock options and bonuses all on the taxpayers dime for services provided to inmates.</span></strong></span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;"><strong><span style="color: indigo;"> Does this make you feel safer? Well it shouldn't because the lies perpetuated to enforce this crime against persons were slogans like "tough on crime", "clean up our streets", "make America safer" and the "war on drugs" which has undeniably been proven wrong. The recidivism rate in Florida is 33% within three years and increases to 65% after five years. And the more people you lock away, the more privileges, care and civil rights are stripped away as well.</span></strong></span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;"><strong><span style="color: indigo;"> For some the winds of change are whispering, "there's nothing more I can lose" throughout a sub-culture of greed and power. Because to witness the warehousing of people you need not look further than the approximate 3,000 sq. ft. of space shared by 86 people to sleep, gather, bathe and function. The rural areas of Florida are peppered with entire compounds of these prisons to create jobs and stimulate the economy. Where does a prison population of 100,000 or so find relief in this environment of too long and too harsh sentences and lack of real rehabilitation? </span></strong></span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;"><strong><span style="color: indigo;"> The Prison Industrial Complex aptly resonates what it has become for there is no rehabilitation, no structured discipline and no attitude of betterment or change. There is, however, plenty of degradation, humiliation to accompany you throughout your prison stay. Aren't we better than that? </span></strong></span><br />
<span style="font-size: 14px;"><strong><span style="color: indigo;"> There are no psychological exams or physical training required to become a correctional officer: a back door into law enforcement, filled with questionable motives as to why this field is a career choice. With the requirements so minimal the keepers are often less trained, educated and experienced in life than the kept and who tout their authority with abandon which has led us to today with a society oppressed by ignorance, greed and power and on the verge of an UPRISING.</span></strong></span>Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-79621826194263736802017-09-06T13:46:00.000-07:002017-09-06T13:46:20.213-07:00We're Back!Hi everyone,<br />
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I took the summer off and will begin to resume posting.<br />
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Kathy <br />
Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-25170324584244246232017-06-02T07:25:00.000-07:002017-06-03T06:28:49.563-07:00Growth, Fantasies and Hope<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">This will be the last post until August as I am going to the West Coast for a couple of months to visit family-Mom.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">My higher self, the universe, God-put me here. I needed this. I don't know if I would have ever reached the point where I am now within myself as quickly-if ever. I was too steeped in my denial of my addictions. I am becoming who I was always meant to be. I saw the opportunity for growth and I ran with it in the most negative of places-prison. I am more clear now than I have been in my entire life. I know who I am and I love who I am with all my faults and attributes. I get it. I get life. And I love life now-even amidst the chaos of my environment. For the first time in my life, I don't want to leave it. I tried to end my life several times before my incarceration and when I first went to jail. As many times as I tried to leave this earth and did not succeed, God must have a plan for me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">So, I have been questioning this experience. Life is a series of experiences. What matters is what you learn from them. So, I am in the experience of prison. I have grown and learned. So, lately, I have thought-what do I do now? Do I just walk around these prison grounds being my best self and sharing light and love? It may sound funny to some of you, but that's ok. Is this what my experience is to be for the next 11 years? Then I remind myself that it doesn't matter where I am-the journey is within me. My human side feels my experience is becoming exhausting-the negativity, the chaos, the noise, the food, the abuse. There is nothing positive going on here. This experience has become stagnant. The only thing changing around here is the guards. And the change that happens with each new admin-warden. Sometimes, they are stricter-sometimes not. Every shift is different in the way they approach inmates so you never quite know where you stand.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I mean, can we just get some damn colored pencils. Geez! We all sit here and our creative yearnings are squashed and we have not much to do. I am lucky, I work canteen every day but a lot of the inmates have no jobs and end up using drugs like suboxone which is a big problem. Escape. Who wouldn't want to escape the nightmare your living? Especially the lifers. I don't judge them. For me, at some point, I will be going home and I have a daughter and I don't want my time here wasted to only end up where I began. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">The funny thing is I am happy and at peace within myself. I go through things but not for very long. My untreated medical issues cause me concern and mom has advocated for me over and over but still not getting the medical help you would get on the outside. This happens to all the women here. Very few staff in medical care about inmates. They use their status as a way to dominate, control, belittle. I worked at a hospital as a patient tech before coming here and was on my way to becoming an RN and I would never dream of treating a patient like I and other women have been treated here and no one cares-no one on the outside does anything. I have seen the doctors retaliate against inmates who complain too much or their family complains too much.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Will my appeal be granted and I go back to court? Will they transfer me to a different prison and do another 5 years with a new experience? Or will I stay here and gain more knowledge? I cannot allow life to become stagnant. I dream of the day I get out and I can make a change for the better for those left behind. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">We all have moments when we fantasize about the "free world". We joke about all the things we might <u>still</u> do when we get out-like washing our underwear in the shower, cooking everything in one bowl, selling a spot in the Walmart line. This morning I was really in my thoughts about the free world. I was envisioning going to a convenience store and picking out a drink-what kind of drink as so many choices? My first thought was-don't spend the money: don't need it. I know I am going to be paranoid about spending money as money here is very tight and you know your family is sacrificing for you to make things a little easier. I feel for the inmates who get nothing ever-so sad. I dream about living in a studio apartment which would feel like luxury to me. Having 2 towels-wow! I think about being in a relationship with a man. I haven't had one since the love of my life died from a drug overdose 12 years or so ago. I wonder what it would be like to date. To be attracted to someone and have it be mutual. What it would feel like to just hang out with someone you like-or even love. Do fun things. If I am not able to go back to court I will be 54 when I get out and I will still be able to have a life and do all the things I dream of. Many women in here will never get to experience any of that ever again. There are relationships in prison-borne from a need for intimacy and sharing but they are tenuous and fraught with issues. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I try not to get my hopes up about my appeal. We did get some good news. The appeal judges did agree that my judge should have recused herself and that my lawyer did put the request for recusal in on time so someone is actually looking at my case but you try not to get your hopes up. Just waiting for an answer. If it happens that my time gets reduced I can't even imagine. Too hard to talk about. So many hopes in here get squashed. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I appreciate any and all of you who read my words. Not a lot of people here listen. I think it is because to share how we really feel and what is really going on inside is too painful to think about. Please send myself and all of us love and light on this very difficult journey. Everything happens for a reason and that reason is to learn about love, compassion and forgiveness. I think mostly to learn to love ourselves, feel compassion for ourselves and to forgive ourselves so that we can spread it to others.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";"></span><br />Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-76425237342571374572017-05-16T08:37:00.001-07:002017-05-16T08:45:08.843-07:00Medical, 8th Amendment, Yoga and Service<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Well, I have been on the new compound now for awhile and I like it. No gates-more relaxed and my job is less stressful. The canteen set-up is different and I am appreciated more. Inmates are more polite. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I had put in a transfer for another prison-smaller with a dog program but I cancelled it because they told me I can't transfer to a faith-based prison. So, I am going to stick it out on this compound for a year or two and then attempt another transfer.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I finally made it to the outside cardiologist (thank you mom). Outside medical trips are no fun! We have to be black-boxed-our feet are shackled and we have cuffs. Then a black box gets attached between the cuffs and the runs a long chain thru it that wraps around your waist so your hands can only move about 5 inches. Good luck if your nose starts to itch. It hurts after awhile and the cuffs make deep indentations on your wrists so you spend your ride either waiting for your hands to go numb or you continually adjust your hands the entire ride. It is approximately a 1 1/2 hour ride. It is a men's facility but it is also where speciality medical doctors are for the incarcerated. They do surgeries and house men and women who are recovering. When we walk through the facility the men inmates act like animals. They make sexual gestures and kissy-faces. They stare and gawk. It is very annoying and very uncomfortable. It took about 4 hours before I was seen by the doctor. He set me up with a heart monitor to wear for 24 hours and then said we'll schedule you for a stress test. We got back to the compound at 3:30 pm and had left at 3:30 am. Medical said I had to spend the night in the infirmary when the doctor had said that he wanted me to resume my normal duties so he could get an accurate reading. Can't argue with medical or you get put in jail. So I laid in bed the whole time until the next morning when a nurse called the doctor and he told them I needed to be doing activities (like I told them). You would think the medical staff would have an understanding of heart monitors! So me and the other girls in the infirmary stayed up all night watching TV in a comfortable bed. I could live in the infirmary-no noise, TV, cordless phone, comfortable bed, good shower and great sink for washing clothes! It is sad that people are dying in there. They just rushed a girl to the hospital. They said she had scarlet fever. She had strep throat that went untreated and her face swelled up beyond recognition. They couldn't get it under control. Anyway, so I actually slept in until 8am which I hadn't done in years. So, after the doctor confirmed that I needed to be doing my regular activities I only had 2 hours left on my monitor. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">The good part of it was the sweet ladies in the infirmary. One just had a breast removed and one was having respiratory problems-but they were a delight. I hope the girl with untreated strep throat makes it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">My mom recently read me a response from my blog. It made me cry. She wrote so beautifully. I never have any idea how people feel about our blog. Whoever you are in Canada, thank you for your compassion and kind words-it keeps me motivated and inspired.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I have been sharing my story a lot lately. Other inmates think I have been down for years and years and always ask me when I am getting out. I am going on 6 years. Then they ask why I am in prison. So, have been sharing a lot. Drug addiction causes a lot of bad choices. I wish I had known then what I know now.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">My post-conviction appeal is floating out there. I want to go back to court so bad. I want to get out there and start my activism for the women left behind. I want to make a difference. Maybe you will see me on TV someday advocating for prison reform. I want to share these women's stories and get them the attention they deserve-to at least be seen as a woman, a mother, a daughter, a sister: not just a number. It has already been proven that when you calla person Inmate and dehumanize them, it is much easier for guards to abuse them. Plus it is so demeaning. My name is Sadie- a name my mom gave me after watching a Barbara Streisand movie. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Most of the women have battle scars from being incarcerated-most came in with their own scars from life. You all need to stand up and hold out open arms with love and help make a change to the system. What needs to be changed first? The point system. It is ridiculous. What is considered a violent crime? They need to have a committee that goes through the case of every woman incarcerated for 10 years or more and see if any revisement is necessary. Women who are poor have no access to lawyers to help with their cases. I think anyone planning a career in criminal justice should spend 30 days in prison so they get a clear idea of where they are really sending these women and men. What happened to the 8th amendment-no cruel and unusual punishment. Being demeaned, yelled at, humiliated, eating non-nutritious food, lack of proper medical care, no hope for parole for lifers, no substantial rehab programs for preparation to return to the outside and on and on. I would consider that cruel and unusual punishment. The system is broken and a broken system produces broken individuals. Not to mention returning to a broken society and a broken government. All I ask is that you add love and light to the world by being of service to your fellow human being. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">It's loud! One room with 86 women. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I now teach yoga for 2 hours on Mondays at the wellness center. It is going well. The girls love it. We have such a good time. They seem to be very dedicated. I wish I could teach it all the time. Yoga is my life. It keeps me centered, grounded and spiritually connected-and healthy. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">So big news today. I think I explained previously that I put in a proposal for Hobby Craft with the warden's permission. They had knitting, crocheting, drawing and painting 20 years ago. I have proposed it to every admin that comes here only to get shot down. My canteen boss told me today that the warden called her for pricing for all the hobby crafts and said the warden is all about pushing it to get it approved by the higher ups. This is huge! Trying not to get my hopes up. The prison has not seen any type of craft or colored pencils for the general population for 2 decades and they wonder why it is all about smoking, fighting and shopping as there is nothing else to do. Even if we only get colored pencils, I will be happy. One thing about me, I don't believe in NO. You just have to keep trying. My patience is insane now. I can wait for years for things now having been in prison where nothing happens now. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">While I was sitting here writing, a girl hit another girl in the face. I am so used to it, it did not even phase me. That is what prison life does to you. You become numb to chaos and violence. Even if you wanted to get involved, you run the risk of violence towards you or getting put in confinement with them.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">So, my mom visited this last week-end and was expressing disappointment for her GOFundMe account for summer packages for indigent women. It is one thing to complain about the treatment of inmates, it is another thing to actually do something. Ever since I have been incarcerated my family has donated games, puzzles, rec equipment, colored pencils and color books to the wellness center at my old compound because DOC does not fund for recreation. No one had donated in years-probably because they did not know they could. Inmates were putting together puzzles that no longer had all of the pictures on them, basketball hoop with no basket balls and so forth. Then some other families started donating also. My family has used their own money to fund 3 to 7 inmates each package time. My mother does the GoFundMe so they can help more people and she is getting short on funds having to pay for my lawyers and supporting me in prison. She lives on a fixed income but is all about helping the less fortunate. My sister always gets one package for an indigent woman. You have no idea what those packages mean to an indigent woman. It means, someone out there cares about me. Mom gets the most beautiful thank you cards.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">If you feel so inclined her website is <a href="http://www.inmateslivesmatter.net/">www.inmateslivesmatter.net</a> and there is a link to the GOFund and we also have a list of indigent inmates to help directly.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">The other thing you can do which my mom and some other women have done is send 10 assorted cards and envelopes (Dollar Tree) and stamps as the indigent inmates can trade them for toiletries.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">When these women get their packages that they have never gotten you should see their faces when their name is called. It is like they won The Price Is Right. They cry and get confused and are not sure what to do. Now we ask them what they need so we can be more specific to their needs. Radios with ear phones are always a big deal. Music calms the soul.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I feel if I have more than I need, then I need to share. I give away my old clothes (most inmates sell them), my shoes and an indigent woman does my laundry so she can get some things she needs. I leave little gifts here and there. I am not trying to toot my own horn but to share how much it means to be of service when possible.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">We are all on the same journey. Earth is our schoolhouse to learn about being better human beings and most of all to be of service. One day we will all be 6 feet under and when we go to the others side and have our life review what will it say about our time on earth. It is not a judgement but a learning process. I never believed in hell, fire and brimstone. I believe in Love. Take care everyone.</span>Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-8553383171865294762017-05-04T07:40:00.001-07:002017-05-04T07:44:36.760-07:00TA's, Wellness Center, We Are All Valuable<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">The officers do not get paid well. When you hire anyone who has a GED or HSD, you wouldn't have to pay them well it seems. When they get here it is a rude awakening and they have no training to deal with it. They are called T.E.A's or as we call them T.A's which are officers in training. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">So here is how it works with "officers". Say you are 18 and looking for a job and you want to get out of your parent's house (I have been told that). Oh look! Department of Corrections is hiring. Let me sign up! DOC says "here guy, put on this uniform that looks just like a real officer's uniform" and we are going to let you work on the prison grounds even though you have zero training. Work on the compound for 5-6 months, see if you like it. If you do, we will even put you thru school-called the Academy. After the Academy we will test you and if you pass your tests, we will attach a can of real pepper spray to your uniform. Oh, but don't worry if you don't pass the Academy we will let you try again.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">So, what we have on the compound are many T.E.A.'s, T.A.'s for short. Young kids, looking for a job, with no training, running around in an officer's uniform.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Now, we are always understaffed. ALWAYS. To fill bodies they allow the T.A.'s to run things. T.A's are never supposed to be unsupervised. HA! HA! HA!. That makes me laugh just reading that. These T.A.'s with no training are running the compound! They have no clue how to call on their radios, what buttons to push in the bubble, which way the chow hall is or what to do when a fight breaks out. Who trains them? WE DO! The inmates do. They don't even know what security level they are working. They don't know how to call count or where to call it into. And with our admin turn-around no warden stays long, or assistant warden or colonel. Last admin was here for a year. I mean really! And they want to take it all out on us. No wonder the inmates are harder to control. Nobody takes these people seriously. Can you imagine an 18 y/o telling a 65 y/o what to do? Every new admin comes with a new idea of control and focuses on the wrong things, let's T.A.'s run things. Nobody respects them and inmates do not take them seriously-why? Because they are all going to leave anyway. You have got women who have been down for 30, 40 years, staying for life. They have had everything taken away with nothing left to do but complain and die.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Sound harsh? Well it is. Do you know what a difference it would make for women to just be able to pick up a box of colored pencils and a coloring book and go to the metal table and just color. A simple pleasure-therapeutic. We are still waiting for an answer on if they will allow colored pencils or Hobby Craft. At the other compound my family started sending games, puzzles, rec equipment that the inmates had not had in years so they did have Friday night game nights, coloring days at the Wellness Center with colored pencils and coloring books. It is amazing what can be accomplished if even one person cares. By the way, we always need those. The Wellness Center here has not gotten to that point yet as they just opened up and my family donated some yoga mats and exercise equipment. I teach a 2 hour yoga class on Monday mornings. When the Wellness Center is more organized and we have an officer in charge all the time, I will let you guys know so you can donate games, puzzles and so forth. DOC website will tell you about different "programs"-not true. And no inmate that works gets paid except the canteen workers at 50.00 a month for a 7 day work week. They expect the women who have lived here longer than anyone will ever work here and have seen DOC change dramatically for the worse-to shut up and be ok.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Not one human should ever live without self-worth or value.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">We are all valuable. You have not a clue about the women here. You only know what you can look up and believe me that is only part truth. There is always a back story that you never hear about such as, in my case, they deemed my crack pipe pusher that I happened to have on me a weapon. An earlier blog explains how and why I got here. Don't get me wrong there are women who deserve to be here for the rest of their lives because they lack understanding or remorse for what they have done-esp towards children. But not too many. The majority that are here for a long time (myself included) have to decide how to do their time. That is where value comes in. We get told every day that we are just inmates. We are treated like meat and are their entertainment. Being able to control other human beings who cannot defend themselves, tends to bring out the worst in a person. Look at me, I can degrade this person and there is nothing they can do about it. Men and women officers alike. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">If you are strong and can overcome the negativity you face yourself and do your best to live a valuable life. It is the biggest challenge of most of the women here. And I can tell you a big percentage don't live knowing they are valuable human beings. A lot fall into the drama of cigarettes, drugs, fighting and money. Just like the streets but in prison. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I believe, as I have said before, that prison can be an opportunity to become who you are-a loving and spiritual being. That is what we all truly are at our core. We are a spark of the divine. You can't try and be good and good happens. No, we are born with love and goodness already within us. It is just about rediscovering it. I don't care what anyone says-NO ONE is born bad. Things happen to cause us to shut down that part of us. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Humans condition each other. It's like who decided that some people were ugly? There wasn't ugly until humans said there was. Our Creator did not create ugly. No one is dumber, prettier or better than anyone else. Humans decided that and look at all the problems it has caused. We lost our way. We lost our heart. We are all equal.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">So, being that we are here for something wrong or bad; we need to recondition to ensure those behaviors and thoughts are understood and then retrained to practice better decision making and behavior. In otherwords, we need to find our way back to our true home inside-back to our heart. When you come from your heart, you cannot do wrong. I just wish women here could be mentored and cared about so they can find their way back to themselves. Instead they are beaten down some more. Made to feel less than; unworthy of any respect or kindness. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">And by the way we are still doing a <a href="http://www.gofundme.com/summer-packages-for-indigent-women" target="_blank">GoFundMe</a> (link) for indigent women for summer packages. Ordering starts May31st. The info is on my mom's website <a href="http://www.inmateslivesmatter.net/">www.inmateslivesmatter.net</a>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";"></span><br />Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-30007911289974413482017-04-28T07:52:00.002-07:002017-04-28T09:14:02.828-07:00Canteen, Parole, Taxpayers, My Life<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Well, since I have been back in canteen I've been way more exhausted. Canteen is no joke. I get up at 4am just to have a good shower and my work day is not over until 7pm. So writing takes some motivation. I really like this new compound though. The shopping is different. The inmates are less demanding and they have more shopping opportunities so the stress level is down. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">My bunky who was above me went home. I love seeing women going home. It gives us long-timers hope and strength that we can keep doing our time and that it <u>will</u> end one day. It wasn't good the way she left tho. A lot of the compound is addicted to suboxone. She had been doing suboxone heavily for some time. She had probation check-in the next day after release. The crazy thing is that she was talking about doing so good and not using. How crazy is that when you are high your entire prison sentence? I mean somebody has to really want to change and do better but at the same time how does someone do eight years in prison and not get any help? This place is so warped. That is a perfect word to describe prison and DOC-WARPED! Department of Chaos. These women leave worse than they came in. I can only imagine what phobias, paranoias and PTSD's they have after doing a long sentence. In prison 8 years isn't even considered a long sentence. We don't consider someone a long-timer unless they have 15 years or more. There are several women here who have been down 30-45 years and have more to go. Most will die here. Parole won't even let them out. My good friend has been here 34 years-has life. She knew about her boyfriend who had killed another man and didn't report it. She is here for murder with life. She has been up for parole 3 times. She is a model inmate and parole denies her every time. You don't think 34 years is enough time for a woman for a murder she clearly did not commit. Craziness of the system. Throwing people away. She is 65 now and prison is really wearing on her. She has done her time. She has earned her life in the free world back-PERIOD! And parole can look at her and say no. Now they don't even have parole anymore. She was one of the last women that was eligible for parole. What the hell is wrong here? I can promise you the larger majority of women here are of no danger and the messed up thing is they are not taught any freakin" skills and they will have no clue about the world. The world will have passed them by on every level. Who is going to ensure their success? So, to not deal with that the system keeps them here and you the taxpayer fund our living in prison. You pay our rent. Shouldn't you also have a say in how it's run? It costs less money to fund someone for college for a year than it does to pay for our incarceration. And we cost more when we are in confinement. So, you have all these young women smoking, fighting, shopping and getting high learning not a damn thing. Great system, huh? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Now I found out I can't transfer to the smaller prison I want to go to because it is a faith-based institution. I can put in a good behavior transfer but can't go there. Messed up. I don't want to transfer to other prisons as they are very far away from my mom and daughter and our visits would be much less. So now I am forced to stay at the worst prison. At least this compound is better than the one I lived in next door. But still, I want to move on. The prison I want to go to has more to offer. So for now I have decided to stick it out here on this compound in canteen for a few years. By then my custody will hopefully lower to where I can go to the work camp and work with the dogs. It is amazing for a prisoner like me who <u>wants</u> to grow, learn work, improve, be constructive and productive has no way to execute her goals. I just have to work with what is given. So far it's been my canteen job-nothing else. I have been in canteen for 3 years. I just want to do something more fulfilling.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I just sit here on my bed and watch a verbal argument between two people which turned into an argument between 4 people. Over what? Boots and shoelaces! Petty stuff. The officer just watched from the bubble. Nobody cares. The staff is just here to do as minimal as possible. And the women are here to focus on each other. It usually does not turn out well.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">On the brighter side, my mom told me that Ben & Jerry's is actively supporting prison reform. How amazing is that? I hope they help get attention. We need it!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Our captain just came in. We have been on water restriction-not sure why but it means that we can't use the showers. Well, it's been about 6 hours so we will "bucket up" if we have to which means we fill a bucket from the drinking faucet and go into a shower stall and sit there and wash ourselves. While my friend was "bucketing up" and the captain (female) came to do her walk through, saw her and <u>reamed her out</u>! A female cussed out a way older female for bathing in a bucket! Such disrespect. Who cares if we bucket up to keep clean. We need to bathe. And we keep going on water restriction and we don't know why.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I am sitting here with 20 years and I did not hurt anyone. I am sitting next to a girl who beat her husband with a brick and killed him. She got 25. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I miss life. I miss my daughter. I miss my family. I crave my freedom.</span>Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-47248833261728618432017-04-18T06:41:00.001-07:002017-04-20T08:21:57.570-07:00Beautiful Writings From A Young Man in Prison<br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Someone said to me, "Had you made better choices, you'd not
be in prison." My first response I had to skip because it was
to kick him in the balls which would be a bad thing. My second
response, slightly more appropriate so I went with it. "Thank
you very much Captain Obvious, so glad to see you've not lost your
keen powers of observation, jackass!" I replied, only I didn't
say jackass though I wanted to! The reality is that I know that poor
decision making led me here. I had... a richly impressive
</span><a href="https://www.facebook.com/hashtag/dumbassattack?source=feed_text&story_id=282142635564064"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">#dumbassattack</span></a><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">,
so here I sit. Crazily so many people focus on the past, which
cannot be changed versus looking to the future, which is still on
deck and as impressionable as a toddler. Instead of trying to look
for ways to prevent recidivism which in many cases could be as
simple as being there to encourage, mentor or just be part of a
support system, folks zero in on what was done to get in prison. Yes
I committed criminal acts. Yes I put myself in this position. But
acts performed during the darkest days of my life does not mean I am
only that. If you consume alcohol 1% of your lifetime, are you a
drunkard? If you crash a car one time in your life are you a driving
hazard? Of course not! I don't mind being seen as someone who once
made poor decisions that is true. But do not define me as that
because I am so much more, as are other incarcerated individuals.
Everyone stumbles; if you find someone down, help them up so they
may see we are not alone in this.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">In prison it gets dark sometimes. Most of those locked in hold to
much pride to admit this, so they push it deep within, hiding it so
far inside that the pain almost goes away. Almost. But the reality,
my lord, is something so disheartening that those not forced to
endure the ugliness of incarceration can't begin to fathom the
feeling. I'd love to lay down an analogy that painted a picture so
vividly folks would just get it, but I lack the aptitude to convey
it properly. To m...e, it's like being a ghost. You reach out to
people with few responses. You don't get to participate in life as
everyone else does. You watch as those you love move on, the world
never stopping for you. Basically prison feels like a living death,
where your ghosts haunt the life you once lived and those you once
loved. This reality is handled differently by those of us inside.
Some folks lash out at family and friends, like some poltergeist
throwing around angry emotions, accusations and the like. Others try
expanding their support system, hoping that a new cast of characters
in their world will help them feel alive again. Many go within
focusing on memories of days they can no longer hold to keep them
somewhat sane and feeling whole. Sadly you have those few who simply
give up, giving into the pain until it eats at them like some
disease leaving them empty within. From there they become ghosts of
their former selves or even end their lives to end the pain. I know
that you all don't get to see this perspective of prison living out
there, but this is the reality. I share this hoping that those of
you who have friends and family boxed in will become more active in
their lives because we are all impacted by this and we are all in
this together. You can be that much needed bit of sunshine to
someone inside, because no lie, in here, it gets dark
sometimes.<br /><a href="https://www.facebook.com/hashtag/prisonerslivesmatter?source=feed_text&story_id=282027835575544">#prisonerslivesmatter</a><br />
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Tears trickle incessantly,<br />Standing on the ledge...<br />Knowing
pains that crush<br />All hope from my soul.<br />Though I love you, I
trust you,<br />Believe in and miss you,<br />Who can care?<br />What God,
what being<br />Can let me suffer<br />When I live sincere,<br />But so
broken inside.<br />Tears trickle incessantly,<br />My days all pain,<br />No
respite to see,<br />With my heart drowning<br />In rivers of
sorrow<br />That flow minus pause<br />Still, who can care?<br />What God,
what being<br />Can let me suffer <br />When I live sincere,<br />But so
broken inside.<br />Tears trickle incessantly,<br />A flurry of
solitude<br />Devastating the optimism,<br />The dreams and faith<br />In
love that just misses<br />The bliss I seek out.<br />Still, who can
care?<br />What God, what being <br />Can let me suffer<br />When I lived
sincere,<br />But so broken inside.<br />
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shatters the false ideas we held about just how
consequential we are to the world we once existed
within. Prior to these handcuffs, arraignment and
sentencing, each of us imagined that those we
interacted with on the regular would notice our
absence, and stay connected were we unlucky enough to
see prison. "Because they are important to me, I
am important to them." So we believe, only to
find out all to soon, that is not the case. Friends
fade like smoke trails jets leave in the sky, not
swiftly but gradually until where they once stood
only memories exist. Family support deteriorates
slowly, like rust eating away at metal until you look
up one day to notice the hole where they previously
existed. In the end you learn just how significant
you truly are as the loneliness from isolation does
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Prison is tough. It's not necessarily the environment, which
tends to be a high concentration of negativity with little benefit
as a whole. What makes prison hard is the isolation. Being taken
from the lives of those you love- mothers and fathers, sisters and
brothers, children, lovers and friends. It is being deposited
hundred of miles from the people who define you and being shelved
for a length of time determined by someone who only knows you from
the worst periods of your life. This person could care less about
whether you better yourself, nor are they even bothered if those you
love become estranged. Isolation breeds a sort of insanity, yet
prisons whole premise is isolation. So, if you know an imprisoned
individual... Reach out to them. A small gesture can make an epic
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Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-39106469540365694272017-04-14T07:21:00.003-07:002017-04-14T07:21:49.168-07:00Summer Packages for Indigent Women<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I started a GoFundMe for summer packages for indigent women. I did it last year for the summer and winter packages and was able to get packages for 7 indigent women. Unfortunately, my family were the only ones that donated. If you don't feel comfortable with GoFundMe, you can go to my site </span><a href="http://www.inmateslivesmatter.net/"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">www.inmateslivesmatter.net</span></a><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> and either donate directly or I have a list of 25 indigent inmates from different facilities and I can email you their information. They really need toiletries since toiletries for indigent women are thru donations which are sometimes scarce. Also, radios are much appreciated. The packages also have clothing, hygiene and food. The first day to order is May 31. You have no idea what these packages mean to indigent women.</span>Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-70042482607971057862017-04-12T11:37:00.001-07:002017-04-12T11:38:19.829-07:00New Compound, Chicken Strips and Thoughts on Life<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Yay! I got moved to another dorm on the Main-mostly long-timers and lifers-and air conditioning!!!! It is the only dorm besides the pregnant dorm that has air. All the others have fans and windows. Crazy huh? Gets hot and humid in the summer. It has taken me a minute to acclimate to my new dorm but it is a whole other world-sort of. One good thing is their are NO gates to go through so the guards can't mess with me like they did before trying to get to my canteen job. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">This compound is completely different. I didn't realize how stressful the other compound was as I have never been anywhere else. If they ever try to put me back on the other compound-won't go!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Oh, guess what? We actually got new spicy chicken patties on the chow menu. It wasn't chicken strips but it is something different-the rumor came true :). Amazing-things are looking up. I am back in open bay (had a cell before) which is ok. I have a great Bunkie. My upper Bunkie is going home in 7 days. She did 18 years. My Bunkie to my left is going back to court for resentencing. My Bunkie to upper left goes home in a month )young girl-22. My bunkies to my right are long-timers and a bit crazy (years in prison changes your brain)-but quiet. We have 86 women in here and 9 showers-that's the most annoying thing a shower is hard to get because of so many women. But now that I am running a canteen again on the compound I am hardly ever there. And now I get to cook again. I can make any meal with a microwave (in my canteen). I feel happy and relaxed right now. I have a new store and I have been working canteen for 3 years. New compound, new dorm, new people, no gates; stress is minimal. I still have a transfer pending to a smaller prison closer to my mom. Of course, all the officers are still the same. I know all of them. They are a little more relaxed on this compound. They all know me so they don't mess with me much.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Don't get me wrong. They are still strict and so forth but the difference is the inmates don't fight it here. They don't fight the changes and the inmates aren't as stressed.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">They just opened a new wellness center here and don't have much equipment so mom is trying to get donations (<a href="http://www.inmateslivesmatter.net/">www.inmateslivesmatter.net</a>). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">There is still petty stuff going on. Last night a sergeant of ours who doesn't like "studs" ("boys") saw a stud and a girl horseplaying. He decided to take the stud to jail for assault! The girl who was horseplaying also wrote a statement and said they were just horseplaying but nobody cared. So, there is still bullshit that happens. Officers can still do whatever they want to ruin your day but it is just easier to deal with in a less stressful situation. Or, is it that each year that goes by the things I see and experience start to seem normal or I just get numb. I have developed an issue in the past couple of years of not liking to be touched. We have such a lack of physical touch here (love hugging my mom tho). We don't shake hands with officers and are not allowed to touch each other like a hug or normal touching-like putting your hands on someone's shoulder for example. So the lack of human contact creates a guard you don't realize is being built up-mine is getting worse. I don't like it if someone brushes by me and I flinch if someone touches me and I instantly wonder why they touched me. I know it sounds bad but these things happen to you while incarcerated that are unconscious. Behaviors are created that I believe eventually result in PTSD. This is where programs and classes that help you stay connected with the world and "normalacy" would help.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I still haven't heard the decision for my post-appeal yet. A longtimer today who has done 20 years got picked up for court today. She has life and they might resentence her. There are a lot of people going back to court. Gives me hope. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I have accepted my time. I might have to do it all. It is hard to think my free-world life won't start until I am 54. I look at women in here who are long-timers and learn how to do my time. I know I have the motivation to start over at 54. I can do it. Mom will be 80 if she is still here but I have siblings who I know will help me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I think the thing I look forward to a lot-one I never thought would be on my list of wants-I miss loving. I mean I love myself and all my faults. I work on me every day. I also give love every day. I share my love with everyone just by being positive and compassionate-but I miss being in love with someone. It is something that does not happen in prison. I don't care if you are gay or not-falling in love is not going to happen in prison like in the free world. It is way different. There is always hope in people's hearts that they will go home someday-even the lifers-and if that ever happened they would leave everything and everyone in prison. So, "being in love" in prison is not realistic. I just feel so good about who I am now I really truly cannot wait till I get to live again-to live fully and joyfully. I stopped trying to convince myself that life can be lived in prison. It is the hardest thing to live fully and it will NEVER be a full thing. It is what it is. But what it can do is give you an opportunity to explore yourself-which in turn is what life is. Life is everything-to feel, explore, breathe, appreciate and that can't really be experienced here. The environment of negativity and concrete is not conducive to that. Prison is for improvement and becoming whole then life can be lived totally different when you get out. I feel for the people who won't ever go home. They appear to have no reason to change and grow and most of them don't. They have no incentive. I know a lifer who killed her 3 kids and she is one of the few I know who deserves to be in prison for her entire life because she has never taken responsibility for what she did. She still calls it an accident. So, people like her need this time to fix herself on the inside and not put other people in danger. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I am rambling a bit tonight. Today I have been inside myself-feeling a bit distant. It is hard to miss life so I don't think about it much but when I do it is so difficult and I just shut down. I don't want these prison behaviors and phobias to seep into me. I want love and affection from my loved ones on the outside. I don't want to feel paranoid all the time-you never know when an officer is going to have a bad day and you happen to be the target. I cannot wait to just truly relax-to be able to breathe.</span>Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3167022284077684707.post-66102863453693104832017-04-06T08:02:00.000-07:002018-04-16T16:31:05.316-07:00Inmate Concerns and Former Inmate Experiences<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">This is a list sent to me of inmate concerns by inmates:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arialmt";">1. Medical is deliberately indifferent to treating prisoners to save money. Medications and</span></div>
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diagnosis is not done. It is only if you have family to fight for you that you might get something<br />
done. Dr. Rodriquez is head of medical and promotes this behavior.<br />
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2. Officers need to be psychologically evaluated for their abusive behavior. Abusive officers are
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3. Bad behavior by inmates is rewarded by staff. Positive behavior is not reinforced by staff.
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frozen and too cold to eat. Dishes and cups are not washed properly. Milk and juice is<br />
watered down to where you have vitamin loss and never get the full cup of milk or ½ cup of<br />
juice that is on the menu. Mr. Corn has been the Food Director for years and allows this
because he gets a bonus if he saves money.<br />
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5. Women are over-looked for programs; especially those with long sentences.
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toothpaste and a hotel size bar of soap and one roll of toilet paper. If you need more toilet<br />
paper or soap it is hard to get even though it is supposed to be on a as needed basis. This<br />
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Women are different then men and that has never really been addressed. Also, women are less likely to leave prison and commit violent crimes. Most of us would be good candidates for parole but we need a chance. Some women have living death sentences with no possibility of parole or early release. To keep people locked up in the US costs 80 billion. In Europe most life sentences run 20 years because they believe in reform, that people can and do change and can be given a second chance.<br />
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1. Re-enact Statute 944.30 (written to provide any person sentenced to 40 years plus and had
served 10 calendar years with good behavior had the opportunity to be recommended by DOC<br />
for commutation of sentence (for non-capital felonies)<br />
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2. Actually reinstate parole-people who have done 10 years or more on a case by case basis (still
profitable as you have monthly fees)<br />
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3. Sentence reform. Many sentenced under Jim Crow laws-violation of civil rights. Sentences are
disproportionate to the crime<br />
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In the end prisons are not cost effective nor does it accomplish a better society for the offender and
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Average Clemency hearing takes 5 to 6 years and most are denied. Clemencies should be heard
within 2 years and if denied there should not be a waiting period. Why are so few clemencies<br />
granted? Is it about profit?<br />
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“<b>Straight from EXPERIENCE</b> your
right that officer is a real piece of shit ...she told me I didn't
matter to nobody that I was just like the dog shit on the bottom of
her shoe!! And y'all all it does is make is worse on the inmate if
family calls and complains” (referring to Sergeant C)
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to work early but tell her on the annex the best thing to do is mind yer business and keep your nose clean. Don't let them affect her just
keep your head high and when they holler inmate keep walking because
it's 1,500 walking around in blue and when they address you as
inmate you don't know who you're talking to I never turn around until
they say my name I know how sorry that Sergeant C is she's a
nasty nasty b**** and I feel so sorry for your daughter that she's
been pegged as her person to pick on cuz she's brutal but has your
daughter told you if you do call up there they will retaliate and
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“<b>I came home from
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served an 18-month sentence so while I was there my first
day walking into the prison I went to the Guard Station
to figure out which bed was mine and I saw this girl
giving the male officer head under the desk the first 10
minutes I was inside the prison I observe several guards
having sex with the female inmates I was there when the
two officers murdered the girl in confinement one of my
bunkmates was having an affair with the assistant Warden
that place is horrible they treat the women like we are
third personal prostitutes and if we don't do what they
want us to they take us to confinement for whatever they
can find its a very sad unprofessional place 3 out of 5
guards are having sex with inmates or making them have
sex for money they are beating and hitting the inmates
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“<b>I would have to write a book to
tell</b> you everything I went through however I do not let it affect
the choices that I make for the rest of my life I have extreme severe
anxiety and PTSD I have to take 1 milligram Xanax a day 1.5 milligram
Klonopin at night and I have to take ADD meds as well that prison
really messed me up and I can say this the officers that they hire to
so-call correct us are so corrupt and a lot of them are in jail I know
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years and I can't explain</b> what it has done to me. I don't take
meds but god I need them. Trying to do all that I'm doing does not
hide how I actually feel inside when I'm all alone. There's days that
make me wonder if I can continue. My mind never leaves that place and
the degradation that I endured. But also there isn't a single soul
that would understand that's in my life thus far. Everyone's proud no
doubt of the accomplishments but that doesn't change what I go
through on the inside. The whole system is far from justice or
rehabilitation. It's mind and soul changing and nothing for the
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“<b>Well I lost a lot when I went to
prison</b>,i did not see my family for the whole four years ,so I was
very lonely an to top it off no one really help for the first part of
my time I did laundry just to have soap to take a bath,then my
husband decided to come back in the picture an help me a lil my kids
were to lil to help an I cried so many nites because I had no one an
now that I'm free I'm not really free on the inside, I'm a 50 year
woman with no career, no job,a n barely have somewhere to stay
because I had to come back to my husband an he don't abuse me on
mentally an it's hard ,,, I still cry an think how prison took my
life away an I still have not got it back all because I was money
hungry,now all I do is pray that I do find a job an be independent
without anyone but it's hard with a criminal record ,, everyone
thinks your the same an I'm not,,,it changed me in so many ways some
good some bad because I have a lot of hatred now especially for
authority because Lowell is run by a bunch of ass holes an if your
not one of their picks you gonna do some hard time,,,just like a few
years ago when Sadie got in that fight in O dorm an went to lock it
was not her fault but she went to confinement an like everyone says
if u say something your going to confinement,i never went ,,I did my
time by myself,i did not have many friends an it was probably because
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inmate in prison. It happen to me several times. Even the girl killed
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will tell there family to just leave it alone. I have a best friend
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day. She is having such a hard time, but when we talk everyday we are
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<b>I am a former "resident"</b>
of the LCI work camp and suffered a dislocated and severely
fractured arm. They ignored all of my requests and grievances for
medical care. The injury happened in 2012, I was released in 2014
and finally had surgery in December, 2015. Couldn't get help
immediately because I had no health insurance. Then when I got
insurance through my employer, no one would see me because of the
history of the injury. Had a friend who spoke with his orthopedic
surgeon and he agreed to see me. He was amazed that I had lived
with the pain for so long because of the severity of the injury.
All three bones were not aligned, the end of the humerus was
pulverized, and both the ulnar and radius were fractured. There
was so much corruption at the Work Camp. Inmates giving oral sex
for cigarettes and drugs. A female officer was fired for having
an affair with an inmate from the dog program, medical care was
refused over and over again. I spoke with Julie Brown from the
Miami Herald and unless an officer was willing to talk with her,
she wasn't interested. I've spoken with numerous attorneys, many
who I wrote to while I was still there, and haven't found anyone
who wants to represent me with a suit against the state. I've
been employed at the Doubletree by Hilton Tallahassee, where many
of our Senators, Representatives, and Lobbyists stay. Needless to
say I would love to talk with them but can't because of my job. I
am very respected at the hotel, currently considered a
supervisor, and right now filling in as the Night Auditor while
waiting to hire additional staff. If I can help you in any way,
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<a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name="js_1"></a>I lost
everything, my parents are deceased, my sentence was
ridiculous for the crime I committed (taking windows from a
vacant house ... that's another story from someone who was
respected in my community). Our judicial system is horrific!
But the system gets $$$ for all who are sentenced. I have
been a guest speaker at FSU, and at several association board
meetings. Please keep me posted.
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<b>He's the one that punched</b> my
friend in the face because she would'nt allow her girlfriend to have
sex with him. (referring to the officer interviewed by Julie K
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<b>It's really is hopeless</b>..complaining
will only get your daughter in more shit..i was there I 2013 had a
guard run me down n put his face so close to mine that are noses
touched as he screamed n yelled n belittled me as I did nothing
because I was afraid of going to lock..i wrote home n a week later I
was locked up in confinement under a protection investigation because
my mom called to complain n threaten to start an investigation from
Tallahassee and They can take months to resolve n the whole time you
never leave you get stuck there in a cell for doing nothing
wrong,taking showers every three days no day light.. be careful how
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<b>I was at Lowell CI for</b> a year and a half. In the time that I
was there multiple inmates died due to medical neglect, abuse and one
girl was actually strangled by an officer that she filed a grievance
against for raping her. When an officer hits an inmate, they just get
moved to another compound. If an inmate gets pregnant then she gets
moved into confinement on another compound and after she gives birth
the officer is allowed to return to the compound. I myself spend over
60 days in confinement because an officer was making sexual advances
and would call me into the officers station in the middle of the
night. He would bring me in there with all of the lights out and
everything. He got to stay on the compound while I was in
confinement. I never saw anyone about why I was in there. When Warden
Gordon would come by I would try and talk to her and she would just
say that it was not her problem. To talk to my classification
officer. Whom I could never get to really talk to. I ended up being
released from confinement only because I grieved classification using
chapter 33. I never even saw the investigator and ended up back in
the dorm where that officer worked. The going's on at Lowell CI are
out of control. The drugs aside because you will find them anywhere,
things are so corrupt. Women are forced to cut all their hair off
because they are black and it is not in "natural" braids.
You are forced to go without TP or pads because you are not willing
to pay the costs. You will be called out and bullied because they
think it is funny and you have to just stand there and take it
because otherwise they can put you in confinement and accidentally
"lose" all your stuff. Confinement is the worst. You can
only shower 3 days a week and only with the tiny bar of soap they
give you because for some reason all of your stuff is contraband.
Even your shampoo and soap. If you are DC you are not allowed to have
any sort of reading materials, not even religious materials. No
matter where you are at, don't piss off the wrong officer. They will
tear apart everything you own and take most of it calling it all
contraband. Even your pillow. The few things that you do have to keep
you from going insane there are things like the rec yard or the
library. Also things like meetings and what not. These are all
privileges and not ones that they like to give you. They will do
anything to keep you as miserable as possible. We had times when we
were in count time for 2 hours and would not be allowed to get up and
go to the bathroom and would get a CC or a DR if we tried. (CC is
corrective consultation like detention. DR is a disciplinary report
like being suspended). All of this does not come close to the whole
picture of Lowell CI, but after everything I went through there, it
is all I am willing to relive at this moment. My prayers are with all
of the women still there and their families.</div>
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<b>this place is hell on earth</b> and just because you are in prison
gives no one the right to treat you like a animal! I spent 2 yrs of
my life there for a crime that I did not do... Never been in trouble
in the 50 yrs of my life but 3 months in florida I find myself in the
worst trouble and end up at Lowell annex where I was called a crack
whore by the guards and staff,laughed at when I was in medical,
called a liar,pos, I was faking my illnesses ect... IT NEEDS SHUT
DOWN ....No one is blaming the staff they are just stating facts here
..I don't do drugs, not a hooker,thief and surely never done a thing
to wind up there but, the justice system there is surely not
justice!!!! Guards use the woman there a sex slaves and if you don't
do as they say you end up dead...</div>
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</span><br />Kathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544974003528351211noreply@blogger.com0